I just want my jammies and my bed.

Almost 4 weeks now... Still negative. If I don't get it by next Thursday, I'm going to call my Dr. And then we'll see...

When I got my computer I was sad that my lame Diablo II didn't work with Vista. Luckily there is a patch to make it work... It's such a stupid game, but I love it. It's easy and entertaining. I don't know if my husband likes how much time I can spend playing it, but I like it... haha

This has already been a long week. It feels like it should be Thursday. I hate weeks like that. I am so freaking tired. I haven't been sleeping well. Sunday night I went to bed around 9:30, but didn't fall asleep until around 11. Then I woke up at 2 and couldn't fall asleep again until 4. Then my girl cat, Emily, woke me up at 5. I had finally really fallen asleep just in time for the alarm to go off at 6. Last night I went to bed around 10... Didn't fall asleep until 11-ish. The hubby had to get up at 5 (he's on-call this week and had an early job), so I re-set the alarm and finally fell asleep with about 15 minutes until the alarm went off again. I pretty much slept through it for about 10 minutes. I was dragging and running late. I hate mornings like that. I feel like I am a step behind. I was so close to just going back to bed and calling in sick... And none of this is helping with it feeling like a long week.

I wish Friday would come faster.

Over Emotional

I don't know why I let things get to me so much. I am pretty much sure that I lost my new bluetooth headset last night. We went to a friend's apartment and walked over to The Block while we were there. I'm pretty sure my headset was on my purse... And it's no where to be found now. Probably on the ground somewhere between his place and The Block. Or in some stupid a-hole's hands. It pisses me off when I do something SO stupid. I totally forgot that it was on my purse. It's not the end of the world - it's an $80 headset, but I got it for around $40. I'm just bummed because I only got to use the stupid thing twice... I don't really talk on the phone a lot.... But that's not even the point... It was new and I don't really buy a lot of stuff like that for myself. (It took me 28 years to get myself a laptop like I've always wanted...)

So I've had my friend checking his apartment and he hasn't seen it.... Sigh.

So now I'm awake earlier than I wanted to be... Couldn't get to sleep last night... Aggravated. Pissed at myself. Feeling stupid.

I so do not feel like playing today. I just want to curl up and make the world go away.

Confused and Irritated

So... I am currently 3 weeks late. Still getting negative tests. I don't get it. It's making me angry. If I'm pregnant (chills just from typing that - for several reasons), then WHY won't a test show it?? And if I'm not, then WHY won't it just START already?!?! I hate this. I'm not a control freak by any means, but I can't stand when things like this happen. And there's nothing I can do. Except wait. Last time I was late I called my gyno and got a blood test done. Negative. I can't take another disappointment. I know we aren't "trying" yet, but I can't help but have my hopes get high... And it sucks to just have them get crushed again and again. I don't know how my husband would react if I were, but I would be really happy. Ridiculously happy.

I guess time will tell.......

Productive

Today I get to spend the remaining 90 minutes at work playing on my laptop. Our receptionist is out on vacation and we all get to take turns covering for her. Now, I have absolutely no problem doing this and actually would have done more shifts than the ones that I volunteered for, but my boss made me hold off on throwing myself on the grenade in order to force more people to step up and take a turn. Normally, covering the switchboard would entail sitting at the front desk and answering the phone. Today is not like that. They are preparing for our Spring Dealer Meeting and are filming something in our atrium today. Not a problem... Except for the fact that that is where the switchboard desk is. So they moved the phone to an empty manager's office. Not a problem.... Except for the fact that they didn't have the foresight to... I don't know.... Put a COMPUTER in here so that we could work! Oh well... I'm not one to complain about getting paid to goof off. But it would be nice to be able to have my work e-mail accessible while doing so... And I actually brought something down here that I need to work on. And I can't without access to a computer. A work computer. Still, I don't mind. I am more than willing to sit here and play Minesweeper and Spider Solitaire until 5....

This weekend is the big "Termite Tent Event" at our house. We have not really done anything to prepare. Tonight we will get to spend God only knows how long double-packing our food into the special bags that they gave us to protect it from the poison... Oh... And all the toiletries and spices and open bottles of ANYTHING. And everything in the fridge and freezer. Plus, Josh has yet to remove the two boards from the fence that have to be removed in order for the to put the tent on the house. So it's gonna be a busy night. I have already been making my usual lists of things that have to be done... Josh makes fun of me for making my lists, but then I get to laugh at him when he forgets things. :-) I can't help it.

So tonight we pack, tomorrow we catch the kitties and cart them off to the Petsmart Petshotel for their first-ever stay away from home. I know that they have to go there - it's not like they can stay in the house with the poison... I don't think they would let us put tiny gas masks on them even if we were able to find them... And I know that my friend said we could bring them with us to her house, but I'm just afraid that they would pee on something or ruin something... Or get out of the room were are going to be staying in and spread their allergy-inducing dander all around the house and her husband would not be happy. So off to boarding they go. And even though, logically, I know all this.... AND I know that they are going to be just fine... I still feel bad. They have never been away from their house (barring the one move from my apartment to the house) since I got them. Even when we would go on vacation, we would just leave them in the house and let them have the run of the place. Cats are so self-sufficient, it's great. My poor lovey little Fred. He won't have anyone's hair to bury his face in... Or his favorite spot in the world - Josh's stomach - to lay on. And my poor shy, neurotic little Emily. She is so scared of strangers to begin with. I am sure it's just going to be that much worse being in a strange place. Poor girl. It's going to wreak havoc on her already-nervous stomach. It makes me so sad. Nothing I can do about it......

We can return to the house on Sunday, but we are going to be at the Grand Prix, so we aren't sure if we would be back in time to pick them up by 6. We know for sure that we aren't going to be back in time to pick them up by noon, and I figured that since we were already going to be paying the "late pick-up" fee, we may as well just pay for one more night and get them Monday. Plus, that way I will have more time to spend with them to calm them down and get the house back in order.

So for now, I am going to lose myself in silly computer games until the clock strikes 5... And I will post this when I get home and have internet access. :-)

**Finally got a chance to get on the internet. Too busy last night with the bags... Blah. Now I am at my friends' house and am FINALLY set up on their wireless. Dropped the cats off this morning. Totally cried on the way there and while leaving. They were soooo sad. Poor babies. They just hid underneath one of the parts of the "room" (i.e. cage) they were in. Hopefully they will adjust all right....**

Tired.....

SO tired... Why am I awake? It's SATURDAY! And I don't have anything planned this morning.

Oh well....

I'm going to return to zoning out watching What Not To Wear until Josh gets up... He hates this show....



And WHY oh WHY is he still sleeping and I am awake?!?! I'm the one the sleeps late - not him! Not fair. Now I'm not gonna change the channel when he finally wakes up.... haha

Early Day

I LOVE when we get to go home from work early. Only two hours, but it really seems to make a difference. It's just such a nice way to get a jump start on the weekend.

So I'm just over a week "late" if you know what I mean... I can't stop myself from taking pregnancy tests even though they have all been negative... I just keep thinking, "Well, I still haven't gotten it... So maybe it'll show up now..." I want to be SO badly. I know I'm not lucky enough to get an "oops" though... So until that second stupid line shows up, I maintain my "PMS-ing until proven pregnant" mentality..........

Irritation

My husband works 4 ten hour days during the week and has every Wednesday off. Yesterday he had a list of things he was "going" to do... Mow the lawn, finish the platform for the shed, put up the new solar-powered motion lights we got, meet with the exterminator about the tenting next weekend, and PLEASE go to the bank. Did he do anything? Nope. Except for meet with the exterminator, which he couldn't really get out of. And then made a point when I got home to tell me about his nap on the couch with our boy cat, Fred, sleeping on his chest. Really?! Really? Another week down without the list getting shorter.

So today's our anniversary. 4 years. They went by ridiculously fast. I'm trying to decide where I want him to take me for dinner... :-)

House

I absolutely love the show House. House is one of my favorite characters. I have pretty much grown cynical about any tv preview that says anything about "the most shocking episode ever," but I will fully admit that last night's episode TRULY shocked me. I never saw it coming. And it renewed my love of the show. Original tv is so hard to find these days...

For your information - my favorite tv shows include House, Bones, Reaper, Heroes, The Office, 24, Scrubs, Fringe, Top Gear, The Simpson's, Family Guy, Mythbusters, Dirty Jobs, and a few others... I'm kind of getting into The Dollhouse, but it's still a little early to pass judgement. I also like Hell's Kitchen.

My fourth anniversary is Thursday. I have no idea what we will be doing... Especially since we both have to work that day and the day after... I already know that I will be getting something from 1800Flowers... Only because I ordered myself a really pretty bonsai tree that was their "April Bonsai" so I decided to have it delivered on my anniversary so that I would get something. J may be a great husband and a sweet man, but he isn't too great about the flowers... He used to be. I have to admit, he set a very dangerous precedent for himself. Haha... Oh well. It's not really that big a deal. I can't keep them at home because the cat's will try to eat them and I don't spend any more time at work than I have to and they die too quickly. :-) I'm sure dinner will be included in the day. And of course there will be fun in the bedroom... But that would happen anyway... haha

A little about me

I am extremely easily entertained. In fact, just then I was extremely amused by the fact that I got to use three words that start with the letter "e" in a row... :-)

I am married. Our 4th Anniversary is a week from today.

I'm 28 years old.

I am the 5th of 7 children.

I work for Toyota and I really love working there. That being said, if I could choose not to work, I wouldn't.

I have green eyes.

I am left-handed.

I LOVE to read.

I am addicted to my DVR.

I can't stand to give up control of the remote.

I hate driving, but I LOVE my dark blue Touring model Prius.

I absolutely cannot decide what car to get next... Good thing I have until October to decide before I have to order it.

I don't like to cook. So I am really happy that my husband does.

I love crafts.

I love pictures... Taking them, looking at them... anything.

I love weekends. But who doesn't, right?

Umm... that's all for now.