Friday already??

Now, on normal week, I LONG for Friday... But this is not a normal week. For my birthday, I decided I deserved a week off. It's been a while since I had the opportunity to do nothing. I love these little times. I just can't believe that Friday got here so quickly. Sleeping most of the day away yesterday didn't help matters... I had all sorts of plans in my head when I got up - go to Bloomingdales and spend my gift card that I got from work, stop by Sprinkles and get my husband the Banana-Dark Chocolate Iced cupcake he wants to try... Among other less fun errands... But then I got a blinding headache and ended up laying on the couch most of the day... Oh well.

I've found that being home like this makes me really lazy... haha When I'm not sleeping, I've pretty much been playing on my laptop, reading, flipping through magazines, and watching a lot of What Not To Wear constantly. Today I am feeling no where near productive by any means, but more so than other days... I mean, I woke up with just enough time to run to Del Taco for my favorite breakfast burritos... Had lunch with the hubby (so what if I had no idea he was going to be stopping by... haha) And I am freshly showered. See, not productive, but at least I don't stink and have left the house today...... So there.

This weekend is just going to fly by, unfortunately, and then I'll be right back in my usual swing... Tonight, we are probably doing our usual hanging out at my best friend's house and alternating playing 5 Crowns (FUN card game) and playing with her puppy, Cowboy. Tomorrow evening is a bbq for our friend's birthday. With errands and laundry thrown in around everything.

The only thing I am looking forward to when I get back to work is that my bosses are going to take me out for lunch for my birthday (this past Monday. I'm 29. When did that happen??!!??!!) and my 10-year-anniversary gift should have arrived. Also, when did that happen? I can't believe it's been 10 years. Craziness. Where is time going? Oh - for my gift I chose a digital camera. It was the only thing I really could have possibly wanted off the list... Plus, we don't really have a cheapo throw-away digital camera that we can take anywhere and not worry about... The others are too expensive to take everywhere... Plus, this one is mine. My friends better be ready to have their pictures taken a lot... haha And it's not like it's a crappy camera... It's actually a name-brand, decent one... But it's my favorite price - Free-99.

My birthday was pretty uneventful... I haven't even gotten my birthday present yet. Josh is getting me a sewing machine. Weird request, I know, but I've always wanted one and my friend's mom works for a company that sells top of the line ones and we can get a really good deal on it, so that's what I'm getting. I'm excited. It really didn't feel like I had a birthday, but I guess that's kind of what happens as you get older... It's not such a momentous occasion... It was still a nice day with my husband, my best friend, and her husband.

Awww, man!

That was exactly what I just said to my husband when I saw a commercial for the new show "Glee." I watched the first episode the other day and enjoyed it (he thought there was too much singing, but that's what I liked about it...) and couldn't wait for more episodes and music. Only to find out something that I had apparently not paid any attention to - IT'S NOT ACTUALLY ON UNTIL THIS FALL. That episode was just a TEASER!!! Dang.

Just had to vent... Plus, it had been a while since I posted anything...

I promise to do a better post tomorrow.

You're Welcome

I voted this morning – the rest of you Californians better make it out there too! And PLEASE make it No, No, No, No, No, No!!!! These are not solutions and they are not going to help anything. I was planning on voting after work because I feel crappy and was NOT going to get up early, but I was able to get out of the house 10 minutes early and figured I would stop by and see what the line was like. There wasn’t one. So I got it done. Go me. Seriously though, I am happy with myself. Before the last election I wasn’t even registered to vote. That was the first election where I actually had an opinion and felt like I really needed to get out there. So now I’m all gung-ho about it or something… haha!

So I’ve decided that being “kind of” sick is SO annoying. I have had something that has been trying to take hold since last week. Finally went to the doctor yesterday and found out that it’s not anything. It’s many things that are all fighting to be the number one problem and none have won yet. So all I get is to take some Dayquil and drink some OJ. Hooray. I so don’t have time to not be 100% right now. There’s just a lot going on at work…

Last Wednesday I was at Verizon Amphitheater / Wild Rivers working Prius Launch. It was a good day except when the gnats picked up in the afternoon – that was obnoxious. Friday I had to go help out at our Lexus office (which made me really want to get an IS for my next car – I had been thinking about it already…). Tomorrow, I have to go out to Irwindale Speedway to work the Prius Launch again. I am definitely not looking forward to getting up at the buttcrack of dawn to get there at 6:45, but I love getting out of the office. Hopefully it won’t be too hot. Thursday I am going to Penske Toyota for RO analysis with one of my District Service and Parts Managers… I have no idea what time I will need to leave to get there. I’ll just ask Josh – he drives so much for work that he can tell you how long a drive will take within 10 minutes.

Friday at lunch I am making a Sprinkles run with a girl from my office… We have no choice. We are being drawn there by the promise of the first day of the limited-time-only Key Lime Cupcakes. Maybe I’ll get another cupcake for my friend’s puppy while I’m there (they make special little Doggie Cupcakes).

I've decided that the only good thing about the fact that all the shows I love are having their season finales right now is that now I will be able to get caught up! I have too much stuff in my DVR. I think it’s going to start getting mad at me if I keep letting things pile up… Haha! Last night I FINALLY watched the season finale of The Office. I normally put any other show on hold for The Office, but last week was also the season finale of Hell’s Kitchen and I had to watch to see who won – I didn’t want it getting ruined by hearing who it was on the radio or tv or something… Then the weekend was busy so I didn’t get a chance to watch The Office until last night… It was a very funny episode and (it is sad how emotionally invested shows can make you) I am SO happy for Jim and Pam. I can’t wait for the next season to start! Stupid summer!! Because I was feeling crappy and knew I wouldn't be able to stay awake until 10, we didn’t watch the season finale of 24 yet – can’t wait to see how it ends…

Next week is going to be a lazy “recovery” week for me. I already have Memorial Day (MY BIRTHDAY) off and then took the rest of the week off just because I need a break. I feel like I haven’t stopped and had a chance to take a breath for a while. They always say that you know you are doing a good job at work when your boss keeps piling more and more on… But seriously, there has GOT to be a breaking point! Or more money… Either way.

So anyway – feel free to take Monday off. That is my birthday gift to everyone. I’m just super-generous and amazing like that.

Total Bookworm.

So, I love reading. Really love it. There are a couple people in my office that bring in bags of books when they are done with them and I enjoy “shopping” through them. Last time, I came up with a couple gems. The one I just finished was called “The Winner” by David Baldacci. It was about some weird guy that fixed the lottery and would make an offer to some poor person to make sure that they won. It focuses on one woman in particular and things get pretty out of hand and crazy – her horrible boyfriend gets killed in a drug deal gone wrong, she is the main suspect, new identities, breaking the rules set forth by the man that fixed it all up, blackmail, intrigue... It was a pretty dang good little thriller. Definitely enjoyable and there were parts were I couldn’t put it down. All in all a decent, fun read.

I am about to start “Love the One You’re With” by Emily Giffin. I’ve read her first three books “Something Borrowed,” “Something Blue,” and “Baby Proof.” They were all pretty cute reads, so I am definitely looking forward to reading it. I’ve been waiting very patiently for it to be released in paper back. The only books I tend to buy in hard cover are ones where I absolutely cannot wait the year or so it usually takes for them to switch over. (All my Harry Potters and Twilight Books are hard cover.) Another one that I can’t wait to read is “Certain Girls” by Jennifer Weiner. It’s a sequel to her book “Good In Bed,” which got me a lot of funny comments when people in my office would see it sitting on my desk (I like to read at lunch). Haha It was a good story and I am excited to see what has happened with the characters since the first one left off.

I had someone recommend the series of books that the HBO Series “True Blood” is based on to me, but I haven’t had a chance to go to the bookstore (and I weep at that fact, I normally go to the bookstore at least a couple times a month) in a while, so I haven’t picked them up yet. I also need to check on some of my other favorites to see if the newest have made the cross-over from hard to paper… I know that Christopher Moore has a new one and I love his books. Laurell K. Hamilton and Mary Janice Davidson are always good for entertaining, girly reads.

And then my husband has the next two in a series that we are reading by Thomas Morrow, but I am letting him read them first… He’s such a slow reader though…. That’s why I keep buying more to keep myself busy in between. And he loaded the sequel to “Hollow Chocolate Bunnies of the Apocalypse” by Robert Rankin to a friend, so I am still waiting to read that…

My list of books to read is pretty much never-ending… If only there were more hours in the day…

Sigh...

Busy weekend. Busy, busy weekend. I was so very close to calling in sick today. I just am not feeling 100%.

Friday I was able to take off from work an hour early so that I could run to the DMV (love the DMV for having wait times listed on the locations websites!) to renew my license. It was the single-most amazing DMV experience of my life. I was in and out and 6 minutes. 6 MINUTES!!! And I had to pay, do my vision test, get a new picture, and do the thumb-print scan-thingy. AWESOME. So I got home a little early and was playing Diablo II (haha) because J usually doesn’t get home until after 6. But his boss let them go an hour early! So he got home shortly after me. Our friend, J, had come over with him because he was going to a dinner in Rancho after work, and had nothing to do for an hour because he got off work early. After he took off we headed to our best friends’ house to play one of our favorite card games.

Saturday morning we woke up, got ready, grabbed a quick snack and headed back to their for their “Come see our new house” bbq. We always get places early so that we can help out with anything that needs to be done. It was a good time. Good food, the pool was 82 degrees and lovely… It was a good day.

Sunday the alarm went off and I grumpily dragged myself out of bed to get in the shower because we had to go to J’s cousin’s house for Mother’s Day. His older cousin is a pastry chef – went to France for school and everything, even came home with a French chef for a husband! His other cousin married an Italian chef, so food is always amazing when we go over there. We had pancakes and waffles with Nutella and berries, her signature currant scones and chocolate banana muffins… So fantastic. But we ended up staying WAY longer than I would have liked to and so now I’ve felt rushed today. Oh well.

So I am trying not to let the impulsive side of me rear her head, but I really can’t stop thinking about that red laptop I wanted so badly before. It’s just SO cute. I want it really badly. And I have all that money on my HP credit card that I already paid off this laptop on just sitting there. Mocking me. I could just hide it in my purse. J would never have to even know that it exists… Right? SIGH. I almost wish I were the type of person that could do something like that… But I’m not. I’m going to be getting a bonus… It’s not going to be much, but it might be enough to cover it… AHHHH!!!! Why can’t I stop thinking about that adorable 10.1 inch red laptop with Vivienne Tam Peony Design (that “signifies good fortune and prosperity”) with matching silk sleeve and color-matched red keyboard?!?! Hahaha… Yeah… I think I will always want it. It’s just so very very very very very…. Me. It’s so adorable, it makes me want to puke. Literally. I love it. LOVE, people. LOVE.

I don’t care that it’s frivolous. Being sensible 100% of the time is BORING. Like my super-adorable Steve Madden gladiator sandals – not sensible, but they are super-cute and super-comfy. And I’m going to go get them in brown too. DSW, how I love you… I guess they aren’t completely frivolous, though… Before them, I had no sandals that I could wear to work… And the brown ones are necessary because I don’t own any brown shoes. At all. Not one single pair. So they are a need, not a want. See the justification powers at work? Yeah… I’m good at that. Unfortunately the adorable laptop is purely a want. Purely unnecessary – except to stop me from going insane wanting it…

Sigh...

Kelly... OUT.

I am so done with American Idol this season... It hasn't been a very good season anyway, but when the only remaining person that I was really rooting for got booted last night, I cut it off from my DVR for the remainder of the Season. I really liked Red, but unfortunately America didn't.

Oh - and I can never remember their names, so they all have nicknames... So far this season we have seen Weiner-Wiggle, Red, Forgettable Guy, Glasses, Blindey, Super-Gay-Boy (I have nothing against gay people - he just irritates me), Blondie, and Big Rounds. I never had a problem remembering Matt Giraud's name because it sounds like a Bostonian saying Gerard and cracks me up. If you can guess who some of those are, I will be impressed.... haha

Last night was the series finale of Scrubs... REALLY anticlimactic. Pretty boring. Oh well. I'm bummed to see it go, but at least someone brought it back to let them finish it instead of it just disappearing like it seemed it was going to... Ah, closure.

A few new favorite shows: Fringe - Walter is my current favorite tv character. He's just so... off. I love it. Dollhouse - the episode when you find out that the guy's neighbor is a doll because they activate her and she kills someone? I was practically jumping off my couch in surprise. Lie To Me - LOVE the real-world examples they show in each episode... I can no longer watch Simon Cowell touch his face with his middle finger when he's talking to Ryan without cracking up... Better Off Ted - Hysterical. I hope it's able to stick around. Quirky and fun. Love the "commercial" for Veridian Dynamic (VD - hahaha Love it) at the beginning of every episode.

Jury is still out on Parks and Recreation and that new cartoon after the Simpson's on Sunday... I'm going to have to check out Glee when it starts because I love that surly, butch lady from 40-Year-Old Virgin. Her dead-pan delivery of highly offensive or weird things gets me every time. Don't know how long I will last watching it, but we'll see...

As you can see... I LOVE my DVR. It is pretty much one of the best inventions EVER.

Blah just about sums up how I am feeling.

So last Thursday/Friday put me at 4 weeks late. Meaning that it was time to get the NEXT one... So I took another test - negative - and called my ob/gyn, Dr. J. She's awesome. I love her and am so glad that I finally found one I like, because it's not exactly a pleasant experience to go visit her... If you know what I mean... haha

So I get a call back on MONDAY (as if I wasn't already wigging out enough already having been waiting so long...) and set up an appointment to go there at two. Unfortunately she was down at their other office and totally booked, so I couldn't see her... I had to see a nurse practitioner that I'd never seen before... Oh well. So she violated... um, I mean, performed a pelvic exam... ;-) haha She said that "everything feels normal," as in - not pregant, and sent me off for a blood test to confirm with instructions to call her the next morning for the results and to start taking the medication she prescribed to make me start only AFTER I got the results.

So yesterday I call and leave her a message first thing in the morning... Don't hear from her... Don't hear from her... Don't hear from her. I have the patience of... Well, let's just say patience is a virtue that I was not blessed with. So I leave ANOTHER message. Still don't hear from her. So I stop on my way home and pick up my prescription so that I am ready when I get the results (provided that they are negative - this stuff can cause serious birth defects). She finally called me around 6 and gave me the news - BIG FAT STINKING NEGATIVE. As my sister says, "Fart noise, thumbs down."

I know that we weren't trying yet and that I really had reason to think that I might have been pregnant (other than the optimistic thought that condoms aren't 100% effective...), but it really hurt. I tried not to get my hopes too high, but those little suckers fly away from you sometimes. Oh well. So now I am taking the horrid medication and can't decide if my hormones are going out of control because of the pills or because I am freaking out and can't get out of my head...

Josh voiced one of my biggest fears last night when he asked, "So does this mean that there's something wrong with you ovulating?" (And just right now, typing those words made my heart feel like it was going to stop.) What if there's something wrong with me? What if we can't have kids? I know I'm only 28 (29 in a couple weeks), but what if it's already too late? What then? Will I blame him because he made me wait longer than I wanted? Will we have to go the infertility route? I really don't know the answers to any of these questions. And every one of them breaks my heart a little. I know that I am emotional and over-reacting right now. I know that I am jumping the gun and don't even know if there is really a problem, or if this is just a weird blip, but I really can't help it. If you don't want to see what an emotionally-unstable, wreck, with millions or horrible thoughts in her head right now, then go elsewhere.

I just need to get these thoughts out of my head so that I can attempt to be a productive member of society today instead of just running home and curling up in my bed in the dark like I really want to.