Dreams...

I've always had vivid dreams... Most are extremely weird... Once I had a dream about green wolves (no clue) attacking my house. My little sister (who was actually 5 or so at the time) killed one of them because it took her favorite Barbie... Another one was that I had balloons with tornadoes in them and if I popped them, it would release the tornado. I popped it in this girl's house that I didn't like (I think I was about 7 at the time), not thinking about the fact that the tornado would be huge and destroy more than just this girl's house... I remember fleeing with my family in a truck we never had... There are others, but those ones popped into my head first... I've also been wanting to start trying to have a baby, but there are a few things in the way at the moment... This will come into play in a second....

I'll regularly go through phases where I don't remember my dreams, and apparently I am coming out of one of those right now because the past two nights have been very vivid and on my mind a lot... The first involved my husband and the details do not need repeating as they would be quite a bit of TMI... haha

The second was that we had a baby. It was a ridiculously adorable baby boy. His name was Aiden. He was smiley and happy and I couldn't stop hugging him and making him laugh. I can still see him - he had Josh's eyes. And we were so happy. I never wanted to wake up... And when I did, I cried. It was such a perfect moment...

But it wasn't real.

How can you miss something that wasn't real?